tasyfa
Roswell, NM Curious
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Post by tasyfa on Feb 19, 2019 14:45:58 GMT -5
Title: Through the Violet Glass Author: Tasyfa (Tas) Pairings: Michael/Alex ; also Max/Liz, Isobel/Noah Rating: Explicit Summary: Picks up just after S01E05, Don't Speak, so kind of an episode tag. Some plot, some smut, some angst, some joy. Your basic roller-coaster. Alternates between Michael POV and Alex POV as the primary pairing in the story. Disclaimer: The characters of Roswell, NM belong to Carina Adly Mackenzie, Melinda Metz, and the CW. No infrigment is intended with the posting of this story. Author's Note: I know full well this is going to be jossed by the next episode so I'm posting serially as I write, instead of waiting until it's all finished. I haven't done that for a long, long time - since I was writing in OG Roswell fandom, actually - so please bear with me. I've put the rating at Explicit because some chapters will be! And others will only have lots of four letter words. Hope you enjoy. (Cross posted on AO3.) * * * * * Michael banked the fire and dragged one of the other lawn chairs over to his favourite, settling it close so he'd be able to put his feet up. He regarded the set up for a long moment, weary to the point of stupidity, finally picking up the blanket he'd deposited there when he exited the trailer and sinking down into his chair. "Fuck." The single word encompassed a lot, but Michael wasn't sure there was any vocabulary capable of covering the events of today. He sighed, scrubbing a hand over his face. Lifted one leg to prop his foot on the nearby chair. The movement took an ungodly amount of effort. Michael managed to replicate it with the other leg and get the blanket spread over himself, and then he relaxed into a halfway comfortable slouch. He didn't know if Isobel had truly understood the revelation that Michael hadn't been the killer. She'd had a total hysterical meltdown and Michael had put her to bed in the trailer, tucking her in like a small child. His heart hurt. Ten years ago, Michael had had to make some tough decisions, choices he'd had to live with ever since. He had thought he'd made his peace with all that, or at least gotten to a point where he'd accepted his lot in life. Mostly. But in the past few weeks, almost every one of those choices had come back around to bite him in the ass. And now, Michael wasn't sure which way was up or what to do next. The only thing Michael was sure of was that Isobel had been right: he was so tired. Of the bullshit. Of the lies. Of keeping himself separate from everyone and everything remotely meaningful. Of keeping any fucking secrets at all. He tried Max again, leaving a message this time when there was still no answer. "Where the fuck are you? Call me or get over here when you get this. I got Iz to sleep inside." He paused, adding in a tone that didn't disguise his fear, "You'd better still be fucking breathing, man." Michael stabbed at the screen with his finger to end the call. He was worried about Max but nothing short of actual imminent apocalypse would make him leave Isobel right now. Their brother would just have to fend for himself tonight. * * * * * Alex sat on the edge of the creepy pink bed, staring at the luminous... Glass? In his hands. The gold symbols were wholly unfamiliar but something about them put Alex in mind of hieroglyphs. He looked over at the armoire, trying to remember its contents beyond the detox supplies. Then sighed and left the iridescent fragment on the bedspread while he retrieved a couple of towels from the shelves. Alex wrapped the fragment in one towel, winding the terrycloth firmly. He used the other towel to tie the package to himself, snug against his chest under his shirt, and then he tucked the shirt into his jeans. When it was as secure as Alex could get it, he turned the lights out in the secret room and made his slow way up the ladder. By the time he'd gotten the hatch closed and the coffee table tugged back into place, Alex was in serious pain. He ignored it for a little longer as he washed and dried the fragment, putting it close at hand to his chair by the fireplace, along with a bottle of water, painkillers, and a notepad and pen. Then Alex detoured to the bedroom. He undressed, stripping down to underwear and a sock, enduring the chilled air on his bare skin while he removed his prosthetic leg, letting out a groan of relief. Alex was going to pay for going up and down that ladder twice today but he didn't care. He'd needed to know if his hunch had been right. And now he needed to examine what he'd found. Pulling on sweatpants, a T-shirt, and a hoodie, he grabbed both of his crutches and headed back to the living room, dropping into his chair, crutches leant on the arm of the nearby couch. Leaving the fragment where it was, Alex downed a couple of tablets with the water, watching the shimmery purple glasslike substance. It was dark currently, the gold symbols mere shadows on its surface. Alex avoided touching it as he picked up the notebook and started to sketch the shape of the fragment, wanting to capture the basics when the thing wasn't glowing. He jotted down some notes after completing the rough sketch, describing the fragment in its darkened state, and then what he remembered from its reaction when he'd pulled it out from behind the wall. Flipping to a fresh page, Alex set the notebook aside and reached for the fragment. It felt cool and smooth against his hands. Even the edges, visually jagged, were smooth to the touch. No risk of cutting himself to ribbons, then. Yippee. The instant flare of colour was the more interesting part. As soon as Alex's skin made contact, the fragment began to glow, the iridescence actively shifting to follow his hand as he stroked over the glass. The gold pulsed into vivid brilliance in the wake of the rippling luminescence and it subsided into shadow again after a few seconds. It mesmerised Alex. He fitted the curved underside of the fragment over his thigh, finding that it sat there securely enough, and ran his fingers over the top side and softened edges, almost petting. It warmed with the repeated stroking, much like genuine glass would have, but the longer Alex spent touching this weird piece of whatever, the more certain he was that it was anything but ordinary silicon dioxide. However, he didn't have any other word for it yet. So glass it was. Alex couldn't say how long he spent sat there, petting the glass and watching the colours ripple and shimmy. Long enough that his thigh was warm from the object but the rest of him was getting chilly because the fire had died down to embers. He put the fragment on the table and levered to a standing position, hobbling over to the fireplace. Alex balanced himself with one crutch, grabbing the long brass tongs to put a log onto the fire. The burst of renewed warmth was welcome. Sinking back into the chair, Alex checked his phone, surprised to see how late it had gotten. He eyed the glass. Possibly best to not hold it any more tonight. He was tempted to call Liz. Biomed might be her specialty but she was pretty good at all the sciences. She was working with Kyle right now, though, and while he and Alex had left things on a decent note earlier, Alex wasn't quite ready to jump into a situation that might require them to spend lots of time together. And he definitely didn't want to take it to work. If Jim had thought it was appropriate for the Air Force to have it, he would have given it to them himself instead of concealing the fragment behind a wall in a hidden underground room in a hunting cabin in the middle of nowhere. No, this strange piece of glass was not for the military. Alex felt like Jim had entrusted it to him, specifically, and he needed to honour that. He did know a non-military engineer who wasn't connected to Kyle. An infuriatingly intelligent and competent one. Alex dropped his head into his hands and groaned. God help him, he was going to have to ask Michael Guerin for professional assistance. [end chapter one]
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tasyfa
Roswell, NM Curious
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Post by tasyfa on Feb 20, 2019 16:43:13 GMT -5
Chapter TwoAccording to the USAF people, Jesse Manes's rank should be Chief Master Sargent, shortened to Chief most of the time. I figure they know what they're talking about! ~Tas * * * * * The crunch of gravel under tires woke Michael. He was groggy, probably due in part to the fact that he was a fucking popsicle. The fire had gone out at some point and he'd managed to pull the blanket up so his legs were covered only by denim. He groaned as he sat upright, chilled muscles protesting. "Not even 30 and I'm too old for this. Pathetic." He looked over to see the Sheriff's Department vehicle and anger burned off the stiffness. Michael jumped to his feet. As the driver's door opened and a white hat began to emerge, he barked, "Where the fuck have you been?" Catlike green eyes greeted him as Jenna Cameron stood up. "Chill, Guerin. It's just me. Max is at home." She bent to retrieve something from inside the car and then closed the door, approaching him with a takeaway coffee cup held out towards him, another cradled close to herself. Michael accepted the coffee with a brusque nod. "Sorry. He hasn't been answering his phone." He liked Jenna; she was about as straightforward as humans came. And he appreciated that she'd offered the most critical information right up front. Jenna nodded, taking a sip of her beverage. "Yeah, I'm not surprised. He took a bullet to the shoulder last night. Refused treatment when the ambulance brought him to the ER, and went home to deal with it himself." Michael choked on his mouthful and ended up spitting coffee into the dirt. "He got shot?" "Yep. Left wing. His shoulder will be out of commission for a while but he's fine," Jenna reassured him. Michael could see her biting back the laugh at his classy display. He rolled his eyes and deliberately took a large swallow, letting the hot liquid settle into his body before he began his questions. "So you wanna tell me what the fuck happened? All's I know is that Max borrowed my truck yesterday. His Jeep's here, needs a part ordered in." Jenna nodded. "Yeah, that's why I'm here, actually. Your truck's at the station now." She paused, watching him. "So's your gun." "It's licensed. The permit is in my glove compartment, same little plastic thing as the vehicle registration. Which is also where I keep the gun." Michael didn't even have to lie, a fact for which he was intensely grateful at the moment. Mentioning his gun implied that Max had used it. He could see Jenna relax at the answer. Small signs, a lessening of tension in her shoulders and arms. Good. Whatever Max had said matched up. "Yep. Found those, just wanted to check everything," she confirmed. Jenna didn't bother trying to hide her smile now. "Evans was shot by Wyatt Long. But he got his in, thanks to you packing. Long's got a nice bullet wound to the thigh that won't impede us from prosecuting him for attempted murder of a police officer, on top of him murdering Grant Green." She chuckled in sheer satisfaction. "Might even be able to get murder one for that." "Grant Green is dead?" Michael was starting to think he might need something stronger than coffee. He couldn't quite wrap his head around what all these things had to do with each other. "He is. I guess the Emporium isn't going to reopen either, cuz Long torched the warehouse where Green had all his stuff in storage." Jenna ticked off on her fingers. "So that's one count of breaking and entering, one count of arson, two counts of attempted murder, and one count of first degree murder." Glee saturated her voice. Then she shrugged. "Potentially; the sheriff hasn't formally charged him yet. Had to get him patched up first." "That is a lot of charges," Michael said, his slow speech belying the furious pace of his thoughts. No way had Wyatt Long been working alone. He didn't have the brains for it. Michael replayed the list in his head and frowned. "Wait, two attempted? Max and who else?" "Liz Ortecho," Jenna's tone was flat. "He blew up her SUV and tried to set her on fire." "I... see." Isobel had clearly been correct: Liz had been in trouble. Serious fucking trouble, by the sounds of it. Michael sighed. "And then he tried to shoot her and got Max. Because Liz Ortecho is definitely someone he'd take a bullet for." After recent events, it didn't even make Michael angry anymore. "Like that, is it?" Jenna was nodding as she spoke, realisation plain on her face. She didn't look upset, he noted, just mildly disappointed. "Yeah." Michael offered her a crooked smile. "You know that whole, the one who got away, trope? She's Max's." He could elaborate further, but there was no need. Jenna was already rolling her eyes. "Oh, for Christ's sake. He really is a teenage girl." Michael cracked up, Jenna laughing with him. Eventually he caught his breath and stepped close to her, holding out his coffee cup to bump against hers in a toast. "Amen." Chuckling, she shook her head. "A'right, now that you've effectively disconnected my sex on tap, d'ya want a ride into town to collect your truck? I've got all the info I need to release it." He glanced at the trailer. There'd not been any noise from Isobel yet. Hopefully she was still asleep; she'd been so exhausted. Michael didn't want to leave her unguarded, and equally, did not want her to wake up and find herself alone. "Uh," he started, letting whatever excuse he'd been about to dream up go as a vehicle pulled into the junkyard. "You able to stick around while I find out what that guy needs?" "Yeah, yeah, go ahead. I'll be on desk duty for the next week at least, thanks to my heroic partner, so I don't mind a little delay in the field." Jenna moved to lean against her car, nursing her coffee. Michael headed towards the bulky SUV, stopping well short when he recognised the man climbing out of the driver's seat. Alex. He sighed, fitting his hands into his pockets as he waited for Alex to walk over, his shoulders hunching slightly. What now? At least Alex wasn't in uniform, so whatever this was about had nothing to do with the military. Michael wasn't sure he wanted to deal with anything personal but it was less likely to get him killed. Probably. He sketched a salute as Alex drew close, keeping his tone even. "Airman. What can I do for you?" Alex held back a sigh. It might irritate him when Michael addressed him that way, but given their last exchange of words at the drive-in, Alex couldn't blame him. "Yeah, hi. I need to talk to you. Um," he glanced at the blonde woman and added, "Privately." He could see that she was from the Sheriff's Department but she and Michael seemed amiable enough so she wasn't there to arrest Michael. Which was a relief to Alex, and also a kick to his own ass that he'd automatically gone there first. Fan-fucking-tastic. So it was personal. Michael wouldn't have minded being wrong. The look reminded him that these two hadn't met, though, and he waved Jenna over, making introductions while they shook hands. "Jenna Cameron, Alex Manes." Alex caught a flash of wariness in Jenna's eyes and felt her grip tighten a little before they both let go. One side of his mouth quirked up. "I see you've met my father already." And evidently hadn't enjoyed the experience. Well, did anyone? "I have," she acknowledged. "I was army, so." So she'd had to be deferential no matter what the Chief's behaviour had been like in turn, and her guard going up like that told Alex that his father had, predictably, been a dick in some fashion. It was all the context Alex needed for now and he gave her a real smile, commenting dryly, "Don’t worry, they broke the mould after they made him." Jenna chuckled, her expression warming again. "I don't doubt it." She looked between the two men, and Alex jumped in with an explanation before she could ask any awkwardly phrased questions. "Look, I need to borrow Guerin for a while but I'm off duty today and you're obviously not, so do you want him first?" Michael stifled a laugh. That wasn't a mental image he'd needed, being passed around like a sex toy. Not that he hadn't tried it on Jenna when she'd arrived in town but she'd shot him down - nicely, but a definite no - and then she'd hooked up with Max, which removed her from his list of possibilities anyway. And Michael had no business thinking about Alex and sex toys at all but his brain merrily carried on while he tried to follow the conversation. "Uh, yeah, that works," Jenna agreed. "I just need him to come with me to pick up his truck. Then he's all yours." Alex flicked a glance at Michael; the other man was uncharacteristically quiet in the face of people arranging his schedule for him. Those hazel eyes had a faraway look that suggested Michael wasn't even listening. He controlled the urge to heave a sigh. "Okay, then we'll do that. You guys head into town or wherever and I'll chill here until Guerin gets back." Finding both people looking expectantly at him, Michael tuned back in to the conversation, brushing aside the sexy thoughts. "Fine by me. Just, gimme a sec." He gestured at Alex, indicating that he should accompany Michael over to the lawn chairs. Alex did so, curious about what the hell was going on with Michael this morning. It was like the man kept losing focus. He took a seat and tilted his head, "What's up?" Michael strained to hear anything from the trailer but silence still reigned. He pinched the bridge of his nose and sighed, mentally condensing and editing the last 24 hours. "Look, Isobel is asleep inside. She had a big fight with her husband. We couldn't get hold of Max, who has a couch and everything, so she came here. Cameron has cleared that up: Max was in some altercation and got injured. He's fine but not exactly in any shape for a house guest. And he borrowed my truck yesterday because his Jeep's over there, waiting on a part." "O-kay." Alex was taken aback by the sudden flood of words. "I... Do you want me to tell Isobel about Max if she wakes up before you get back?" he asked, zeroing in on what was probably the most important part. At the question, a bright smile spread over Michael's face. For all their crossed wires and shit communication, sometimes Alex just got it. "Yeah. Yes, please, if you could tell her that he got hurt, he's fine, he's supposed to be sleeping so don't call him. That should do her until I can talk to her." "All right." God, that smile. And a 'please'. Alex had already figured that Michael was genuinely worried about Isobel; he knew him well enough to know how close Michael was to the Evans twins. The relationship among the three of them made more sense to Alex after his time in a war zone. Family didn’t have to have anything to do with blood. "Thanks, man." The gratitude was clear in Michael's voice even as he started to walk away and Alex just watched him, until Deputy Cameron's car disappeared down the road. Alex had thought he'd had a strange day yesterday, but it seemed like Michael's might have been equally peculiar, and maybe even more difficult, going by his behaviour. He didn't know if that would make Michael more or less receptive to helping Alex. Well, he supposed he would find out soon enough. [end chapter two]
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tasyfa
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Post by tasyfa on Feb 22, 2019 11:53:31 GMT -5
I feel like a bit of a tease now, lol, but this isn't a 'quick fix' fic and the payoff will come, promise! ~Tas * * * * * Michael stared out the window, quiet, as Jenna drove. The junkyard was within the city limits but only just. Soft music with a definite twang wafted from the radio and he smiled a little, recognising Max's favourite station. Jenna eventually broke the silence. "So, Alex and his father, they don't get along, huh? That was my take on it?" "That is correct," Michael managed in a clipped monotone. But he wasn't any kind of military, and Jesse Manes certainly didn't deserve any respect from him. "Mainly because he's Chief Master Asshole." Damn, it felt good to say. "Mm," Jenna made a non-committal sound. "Longtime military family?" "Yeah. All four sons, his own dad, and who knows how many more generations back." "Thought so," she nodded, pausing her commentary while she navigated a sharp curve in the road. "Men like that don't tend to handle it well when they have a gay son." Michael just sat there, his mind gone absolutely blank at the matter-of-fact pronouncement. Finally he shook his head and laughed. "Nothing wrong with your radar." It wasn't like Alex was obvious about it these days, not like back in high school with the defiant eyeliner and nail polish. She chuckled. "My radar is pretty damn good." Jenna glanced over at him and raised an eyebrow. "Except when it comes to you." "Ha." Most days, Michael would have run through a whole raft of innuendo in response to that look. Today, though, he was tired and feeling bruised inside and out, and what he offered Jenna was blunt honesty instead. "Probably because I trip all of them at the same time." "Yeah, that'd do it." There wasn't any censure in her voice, only gentle amusement. Which seemed to be how Jenna approached the world in general, so Michael figured if she was still laughing, then it didn't bother her. He sighed and leaned his head against the seat back, closing his eyes to shut out the sight of the town centre as they neared the station. Michael stayed like that, silent, letting his mind drift aimlessly with the music, trying not to think about anything at all for the next few minutes. When Jenna put the car into park and turned off the ignition, Michael roused with another sigh, unbuckling his seatbelt. "Thanks, man." "No problem. C'mon, you'll need to sign for the gun." Michael followed her into the building and obediently signed the evidence log, tucking the piece into the back of his jeans and the car keys into his pocket. "You alright?" Jenna inquired as they moved down the hallway. "Yeah, yeah. Just tired. You know where I was sitting when you showed up? Yeah, I fucking slept there." He rolled his eyes and chuckled, deflecting her easily. Jenna laughed. "In that case, want another coffee for the road? I know where Evans keeps his travel mug and it's not like he's gonna need it right away." The uncomplicated pettiness of taking Max's mug appealed to Michael as much as it clearly did to Jenna and he echoed her laugh. "Why the hell not?" "Plain black, right? Wait here." He did, and she was back in a couple of minutes with a fancy green thermos mug and a paper bag, holding both out to Michael while she chewed and swallowed something. "Take the donuts too so I don't eat the entire damn bag." He accepted both with a grin. Michael had learned early in life that women would want to feed him and it made them happy - and his life easier - if he just took the food. "Yes, ma'am." She snorted a laugh and pointed at the door. "Your truck's at the end of the same row where I parked. Go. Eat. Sleep. In that order." Michael sketched a salute with the hand holding the donuts and ambled outside, locating the vehicle immediately. He was still thinking about that gesture when he pulled the truck out into the town's traffic. Seeing Alex and Jenna bond over being military had obviously scrambled his brain. Michael had only used that faux salute with Alex before, because it was a sarcastic sneer of a hand movement that struck directly at a core part of who Alex was. But finding himself replicating it with Jenna made Michael realise that it was an ambiguous gesture coming from him, because he aimed it solely at someone he did actually respect. It was a weirdly uncomfortable realisation. And one he didn't want to spend time on right now. It was enough to notice it and file it away for later. Like, after he found out what the fuck Alex needed to talk to him about privately. * * * * * Alex waited a few minutes after he'd been left alone, until he was sure that the various noises hadn't woken Isobel, and then he retrieved his backpack and a bottle of water from his car, settling back into the chair. He didn't have any idea how long he'd be here but he might as well get some more notes down while he waited. Out came notebook, pen, and iPod. Fitting the earbuds into place, Alex chose a mellow playlist that wouldn't distract him and got to it, scribbling bullet points on a fresh page. He paused now and again to close his eyes and bring up mental images of the fragment, refreshing his thoughts before continuing to make notes. The memory had to do, because Alex definitely wasn't getting out the actual glass in an unsecured location. He closed the notebook and clipped the pen to it when he heard the metallic squeak of the Airstream door, turning in the chair towards the sound. "Where's Michael?" Isobel asked, before Alex had a chance to turn off the music. He did so now, looking over at her, concealing his surprise at her dishevelled appearance. He'd never seen Isobel look anything but fully polished, even as a kid. "He had to run into town to collect his truck. He was going to come right back so it shouldn't be long now," Alex explained, keeping his tone even and soothing. She tilted her head, staring at him. "And he left you here?" "Um, yeah." Alex tucked his stuff into the backpack and picked up his crutch, getting to his feet so he could talk to her properly. "I came by to talk to him about something and he asked if I could wait." He shrugged, indicating his civvies. "I wasn't in a rush." "Okay." Isobel seemed to accept that explanation but there was a speculative note in her voice that made him groan internally. Great, an inquisitive sister, just what Alex needed. Or best friend. Best friend's sister? Whatever. All of those roles were dangerous. "Well, I'm going to make some coffee. Would you like one?" Isobel straightened, some of her veneer reappearing. It fascinated Alex. He nodded, moving towards her as he spoke. "That would be nice, thank you. Before you do, though, Michael asked me to pass on a message." The name tasted strange, unfamiliar in Alex's mouth. He never said it anymore. The other Michaels he knew went by Mike, or Mick. Only Michael Guerin went by his full name. "A message?" That bit of veneer cracked immediately and her voice squeaked at the end of the question. Alex kind of wanted to give her a hug. He couldn't say he'd ever considered Isobel Evans to be huggable; she'd been worlds apart from Alex and his friends in high school. Michael had been their only point of overlap. And remained that point, it seemed. "It's all right, it isn't bad news," Alex offered first, adding a gentle smile when he saw the lines of her body relax. "He just wanted you to know to not try to call Max, because Max was in an altercation last night and he got hurt. He's fine but he's supposed to sleep it off." "Oh my God." Her hand flew to cover her mouth and Alex saw a flash of blind panic cross her face. Then Isobel took a deep breath, letting her hand drop, and a few more deep breaths. "Okay. Okay, Michael would not have left you here to tell me if there was actually something really wrong with Max. He would have woken me. So, I'm going to go make us some coffee, and then I'll be out to sit with you. And I will not use my phone." Alex simply nodded, agreeing with her, and Isobel gave him a sharp nod in return then pivoted and went back into the Airstream. He took a deep breath of his own and sat down again. It felt like there were layers of meaning to everything this morning that he just wasn't seeing. Flickers out of the corner of his eye. And just as impossible to pin down. The rumble of an engine alerted Alex to Michael's imminent arrival before the truck came into view, dusty green and purring. Here we go. Alex steeled himself, reaching for the calm that he'd been able to give Isobel. He knew he was going to need it. Michael parked and exited the truck. He took stock of the scene as he walked over: Alex had obviously grabbed stuff from his car and seemed to have made himself comfortable, and Isobel was nowhere to be seen. He frowned; she should have been awake by now. "She's making coffee," Alex told him as soon as Michael drew close enough that he didn't need to shout. "And possibly getting dressed. Although I'm sure there's an audience somewhere for the fetching combination of knee-high sports socks and a lacy nightie." The dry comment startled a laugh from Michael. "Oh, yeah, somewhere. Here, want a donut? Apparently some clichés are true and the cop shop had a tonne." He passed the paper bag to Alex. "I could eat," Alex withdrew one of the sweet treats and folded the top of the bag down, setting it on the nearby table. He jerked a thumb towards the trailer. "I told her about Max. She had a wobbly moment but then came to the conclusion that you wouldn't have left if you'd thought it was something serious." "She's right." "I know." And Alex did know. But it wasn't until right this second that he realised Michael had trusted him with Isobel - with his family. It was unexpected, to say the least. "So." Michael dropped into a chair. "What did you - hey, Iz," he interrupted himself as Isobel opened the door, balancing two mugs as she closed it behind her. "Good morning, boys," her tone was bright and breezy and Michael smiled. She'd changed her clothes and brushed her hair, too, as Alex had guessed she would. Michael was glad to see it, even if he knew that it was partially an act, brought on by Alex's presence. "Thanks," Alex smiled at Isobel when she handed him one mug. It was good to see her being more, well, Isobel like. He pointed at the table. "Donuts. Help yourself." She clapped her hands and Alex had to laugh as Isobel tore into the bag and took a big bite, sighing in exaggerated bliss once she'd swallowed. "God, sugar rush. I needed that." Michael joined in the laughter and gestured at Alex. "How come you weren't that excited?" It felt natural to tease him. Act or not, Isobel's mild silliness lightened his own mood. Maybe they could get through this shit after all. "Well, this is a mid-morning snack for me, Guerin. I already ate my Wheaties," Alex informed him in a lofty tone. The return volley was automatic, courtesy of long years of piss-taking interactions with his fellow airmen, on top of the years growing up in a house full of guys. But it felt good to be able to do this with Michael. Familiar, and a lot more comfortable than the body blows they'd been verbally dealing each other lately. Isobel looked heavenward and Michael smirked; he'd seen that reaction to him and Max bickering many a time. She smiled at him and then Alex, addressing them both. "You two obviously have stuff to do and I need to get going." "Izzy, you sure?" Michael stood and moved close to her, concerned. They hadn't even talked yet. "Yes, Michael, I'm sure. I'm going to Mom and Dad's. I need some time to myself to think about things, and we can't talk to Max yet anyway, so I'm going to go sit in Mom's big jacuzzi bath with the bubbles on and try to just be for a little while." Her eyes teared up and she sniffled, but she raised her chin and it broke his heart, how brave she was being. "Okay, Iz. Okay." Michael patted her shoulder, pretty sure she wouldn't thank him for a hug right now. He knew she'd start crying if he tried and she didn't like doing that even without an outsider in the audience. "Text me when you get there. I'll let you know when I've talked to Max and we can make plans then." "I will." Isobel nodded firmly and went back into the Airstream, emerging almost immediately with duffle bag in one hand and car keys in the other. That was from yesterday's vehicular rescue. Michael idly thought that it was just as well that Max's Jeep was out of commission, because he really didn't want to have to retrieve it from the Sheriff's Department after doing so for both Isobel's and his own. Alex watched in silence as Michael walked her to the car. There was more to it than the summation Michael had given him before; he was certain of it. But their quiet words hadn't given him any clues, and it wasn't any of his business anyway. So Alex sipped his coffee, waiting for Michael, cocooning himself in all the calmness he could muster. He'd managed it with Kyle last night, breaking through some of the other man's naivete. But everything he'd told Kyle, Michael already knew. Had known for a decade. Alex had a history with each of the two men, in very different ways. He focused on his breathing, keeping it slow and steady while he watched Isobel drive away. Michael turned towards him once she was out of sight and Alex tamped down on the flutter in his stomach. Be nice. You need him.Alex could wish that weren't the truth. [end chapter three]
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Post by tasyfa on Feb 23, 2019 3:28:42 GMT -5
I haven't written at this kind of pace for YEARS. Missed it! ~Tas * * * * * Michael approached the little collection of chairs at a slow walk, his eyes on the man sat there. Alex looked good. There was a stillness about him this morning that Michael hadn't noticed before, a serenity almost. Michael could use some of that. He didn't bother sitting down, grabbing a donut from the bag and leaning against the table, facing Alex. "So. Just us now. What'd you need?" Typical. Alex refrained from rolling his eyes. He didn't think Michael was trying to be confrontational; the tone was friendly enough. It just seemed like the normal state of being for him. Well, Alex wasn't going to let it get to him today. "It's... An engineering problem. Sorta." "You have engineers under your command. Why bring it to me?" Michael asked, genuinely puzzled. He didn't have access to the kind of lab equipment Alex could use at work. And he wasn't formally qualified. For anything. Alex debated what to say, finally deciding on, "I'll explain it all. In private." He got to his feet and hoisted the backpack, pointing at the Airstream with his crutch. "Can we go inside?" "Inside?" Michael repeated. He'd put his drawings and calculations back up after Alex had broken it off at the drive-in. No need to conceal them anymore with only Max and Isobel coming round. "Yeah." It wasn't going to be fun for Alex either, being stuck together in the small space where he'd spent a handful of gorgeous nights beside (under, over) this man, learning what changes the years had wrought on their bodies. He knew he'd be able to see Michael's bed from everywhere in the trailer. He knew it was going to feel like a fist to the solar plexus. He also knew it was necessary. Alex might have thought himself paranoid for being so careful, but he'd trusted Jim Valenti and the level of concealment the dead man had used for the fragment gave Alex a very clear steer on how to proceed. And, Alex knew his father. If Jim hadn't told the Chief, there'd been a damn good reason not to, and Alex wasn't about to break that trust now. He stepped close to Michael, meeting his eyes squarely, his voice soft. "I know I'm asking a lot. I wouldn't ask if it weren't important. You're the best person to help me, and I know I can trust you to keep it to yourself." Michael stared at him for several minutes, shocked into silence. Whatever this was about, Alex was deadly serious, and Michael started to get a nervous churn in his stomach that had nothing to do with Alex's proximity or the prolonged eye contact. In the past 24 hours, so many secrets had come to light. Michael wasn't beholden to Isobel to never tell Max about Liz Ortecho anymore. And he wasn't beholden to Max to never tell Isobel about her own secret, either. He'd done that. There was more to tell, details to flesh out, but Michael wasn't suspended between the Evanses now, for the first time since June 2008. Michael only had one secret left. He didn't know if he wanted to keep it. Alex could tell the instant Michael made a decision from the way his eyes changed, shading greener with emotions that Alex couldn't identify. He tried to project reassurance. Alex knew he'd hurt Michael in their recent interactions but that wasn't why he was here now. Michael nodded, finally, swallowing hard. He didn't say anything, just turned on his heel and made for the trailer. Alex followed Michael and caught the open door behind him. He leaned against it briefly, making sure the single strap of the backpack stayed on his shoulder, then climbed up and in, turning to close and latch the door before he faced Michael again. And stopped dead. Complicated equations and schematics covered the walls around the table, and more papers were scattered across the table, along with pencils, rulers, protractor, calculator, compass... His gaze encountered a squarish piece of rippled glass with a darkened glow. "Holy shit," Alex breathed. "There's more than one piece." Michael's brain stuttered. "What?" How the fuck did Alex know about the ship? "That's, it's," Alex couldn't get the words out as he dropped his backpack on the table and hurried to unzip it. He pulled out the towel-wrapped package and shoved the backpack to the floor, removing the towel and using the vacated space to place the matching fragment onto the papered surface. It luminesced when he touched it and Alex couldn't resist stroking his palm over the glass to bring up the golden symbols. He looked at Michael. "This is why I'm here." Michael reached towards the new-to-him glass piece, unable to believe his eyes. He trailed a fingertip along the edge, feeling the familiar smoothness and the gentle warmth against his skin. The way Alex stroked the glass was the same as he himself did, as though he couldn't not touch it when it was right there. "How? When?" Michael managed, wide eyes shifting to meet Alex's. "Last night. The how is a little more complicated. But no one else knows. I knew it needed to be kept confidential. And," Alex hesitated; this last part was harder to admit. Especially to Michael. Despite how he'd ended up in the Air Force, Alex was proud of what he did. But it was the very contrast between those two factors that lent weight to his conviction. "It needs to be kept away from the military." "Yeah. It does." Michael was distracted by the new glass shard; his voice lacked the heat that would be customary with such a statement from him. He wanted to examine it more closely. Michael picked up the square and offered it to Alex. "I'll show you mine if you show me yours?" Alex couldn't help but laugh. "Really?" But he slid the curved fragment towards Michael and accepted the square one. "They look slightly different," Alex observed, watching the glass shimmer in the wake of his fingers. "The bigger one is more of a solid purple. This has some sunset colours mixed in." Michael grinned at the tone of the comments. Alex was obviously as enraptured by these shards as he was. A laugh bubbled out, giddy with discovery. "It probably has to do with the relative sizes. The nuances blend together more over a larger surface." Alex looked over at him, seeing that grin, and he mirrored it. He didn't think he could properly articulate just how thrilling this was. "So unbelievably cool." "Abso-fucking-lutely," Michael agreed. His gaze dropped to follow Alex's hand moving over the glass, seeing the familiar trails of light. Caught up in the excitement, he spoke more freely than intended. "I had no idea it would react the same way to a human." It took Alex a moment to actually comprehend what Michael had said, and then his breath whistled through his teeth in a forceful exhale. "Run that by me again." Michael froze. He looked away altogether, towards the door, but besides the fact that he lived here, Michael wasn't going to run. At the same time, he wasn't entirely sure what to say. The memory floated up of a dig Alex hadn't even known was a dig when he'd delivered it, and Michael ventured, "Uh... Ho ho ho?" "What? Ho ho..." Alex halted, mentally filling in the context. At the dairy ranch, when he'd given Michael his notice for vacating the premises. What Alex had thought was a last ditch attempt to undermine the Air Force plans for a new facility, by suggesting it was a historical site because of the UFO crash. Which Alex had deflected with a derisive comment about Santa's workshop. He swallowed against a sudden dry throat, feeling his heart rate jump. Letting go of the fragment, Alex leaned against the table and pointed at Michael's legs with his chin. "I'm going to need that chair." Instantly Michael was on his feet and he slid the chair towards Alex, watching as he sat down heavily. His heart was in his throat as he waited for a reaction. "You're," Alex started, then shook his head. He didn't know how to finish that sentence. Scenes were scrolling across his mind. Strange comments Michael had made that had stuck in Alex's memory. The unusual closeness amongst Michael and the Evans twins. He knew that story, three lost children in the desert. But it had never occurred to him that --- His gaze fell on Michael's bed and utter incredulity replaced the expected hurt. Alex wanted to laugh and cry at the same time as he realised, "You're telling me that I've fucked an alien." "Yes?" There wasn't anything else Michael could say. A corner of his brain was really fucking amused that Alex had gone there first. "Okay then." What else could Alex say? They'd done what they'd done, and they were who they were. One fucked up, broken queer and one extraterrestrial orphan. He closed his eyes, nodding to himself as he sighed. "Okay." That was it? To say Michael was confused would be a massive understatement. "You alright, man?" Alex nodded. He opened his eyes and looked directly at Michael. The truths that had drawn them together as teenagers all those years ago hadn't changed, not in any way that mattered. "Yeah. It's all good." [end chapter four]
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Post by tasyfa on Feb 24, 2019 10:24:51 GMT -5
Chapter 5 * * * * * Michael stood there regarding Alex for a long time. He kept examining Alex's face, checking for micro expressions, searching for any hints, no matter how faint, that Alex wasn't telling the truth. He found nothing. He didn't know what to do with nothing. He didn't know how to move forward with Alex being fine with him being what he was. Hope for the best and prepare for the worst, the adage said. But Michael hadn't dared hope. He felt like his capacity for hopefulness had died alongside Rosa Ortecho, when he and Max had decided to cover everything up and in Isobel's eyes, Michael had become a murderer. He'd half believed it of himself as the years slipped away. He'd certainly lived down to it. "'It's all good'? What the fuck does that even mean?" Michael burst out. Alex raised an eyebrow. He couldn't say he was surprised by the anger. This was big. Michael had been carrying it around for his entire life. Longer than Alex had been carrying around being gay, and with the potential for a lot more serious repercussions. At this point in history, Alex wasn't likely to get locked away and dissected. But Michael was. As bad as the Chief's behaviour had been towards his own son, Alex knew it didn't hold a candle to the treatment a real live alien would receive. That sent the first tendril of true fear snaking down Alex's spine. He held tighter to his aura of calm. "It means what it says, Guerin. You're an alien. I'm missing a leg. Nobody's perfect." The reasonableness of both the words and the tone infuriated Michael. How could Alex be so goddamned adult about everything when Michael was just this side of panic? "How very fucking modern of you, Manes. We should pose for a diversity poster. Look, everyone, it's the gay amputee and the really, really illegal alien." "Guerin." The single word was a warning but Michael ignored it. Too much emotion thrummed through him, and he never did have much control when he was angry. "Right, right, I totally forgot the book cover option. How about a Harlequin paperback? The Airman and the Alien Criminal. I bet that would sell like hotcakes," he spat, unable to stop himself. There were exactly two people on the planet who could rile Alex to the boiling point in no time flat: his father, and Michael Guerin. "What the hell is your problem, Guerin? Do you want me to hate you? Be afraid of you?" Alex snapped. "Because I don't. And I'm not. So get over it already." Michael vibrated with rage. The plates in the cupboard started rattling, knocking together in the tiny kitchen area. Alex glanced behind him. He couldn't see the source of the noise but he'd washed enough dishes in his life to recognise it. Well, no, the actual source seemed to be Michael. And wasn't that a kicker? Some kind of telekinesis, thank you Maria for the vocabulary. Alex had to get his own temper under control if he were going to help Michael with his. He closed his eyes, reaching for the quiet place in his mind that served as his refuge. Alex let the peace of it flow through him, cooling the anger, the way he'd learned while also learning to walk again. No shortage of fury in a veterans' hospital. What the fuck, was Alex meditating? Now? Michael could see him regaining his composure and the contrast to his own mood just made him madder. He clenched his fists at his sides, breathing heavily. Michael knew he needed to get himself under control - the pencils were rising from the table, the drafting tools too, and wouldn't that be the cherry on top if he managed to kill himself with a fucking pointy compass? Floating objects greeted Alex's gaze when he was ready to act. One eyebrow went up and then he ignored it, getting to his feet and taking the few steps necessary to stand in front of Michael, within his personal space but not actually touching him. "Look at me, okay? Focus on me." Michael's eyes met his. He could see that Alex was genuinely calm again and he wanted to know how that was possible when Michael felt like a tornado was tearing through him. He understood now what Max had been experiencing when he'd blown the town's power grid. It was hard to be this close to Alex, though. Too hard to see compassion in his expression instead of fear. Michael blinked rapidly and turned his head away. "Hey, no. Keep them here." Alex touched Michael's cheek, guiding him to come back to face Alex head-on. When he did, Alex dropped his hand to press flat on Michael's upper chest. "Breathe with me. Concentrate on me and match my breathing." Michael drew a shuddery breath and mirrored Alex, raising his hand to place the palm on Alex's chest, feeling its gentle rise and fall. He tried to narrow his focus to the sound and rhythm of Alex breathing, and the soft shine of dark eyes. Slowly, slowly, they synchronised, Alex leading them both to tranquillity. He'd spent plenty of time looking at Michael before but not quite like this, and he kept noticing the colour variations in Michael's irises, bits of green, brown, gold, stirred through the caramel. They were stunning, every bit as magic in their own way as the violet glow of the glass fragments. Finally, Michael nodded and looked away, lashes veiling the beauty. "Thank you." Simple, direct. Michael noted the trailer had gone silent and nothing was visibly damaged; crisis averted. This time. He offered a crooked smile. "I might have to ask you for lessons." Alex chuckled. "Yeah, doable. But it would probably be better at my place. We could go outside - fewer breakables around." "I'm not going to the base. It's not safe." Michael's forehead creased in surprised concern at the suggestion. "I don't live on base," Alex hastened to clarify. He hadn't told Michael that previously; he'd been waiting until he felt comfortable enough to invite him over. Then the drive-in had happened, and, well, here they were. "Ah." Michael had assumed, and Alex obviously hadn't wanted to set him straight before. Fair enough. He hadn't been entitled to the information then, nor was he now. "So, when do you want to do this?" Alex glanced at the table. He wanted to learn about the fragments but it looked like Michael had been studying his pieces for a long time, and more discovery could wait. Helping Michael develop his emotional control felt more critical. He shrugged. "No time like the present. Today and tomorrow are my weekend, so I'm available." "Let me talk to Mr. Sanders." Michael hadn't anticipated the offer or its immediacy but he'd be a fool not to take Alex up on it. "Yeah, sure," Alex waved him off, exhaling in a long sigh once Michael left the Airstream. He knew he could help. He knew it was important, that Michael needed help, and he was willing and able to give that help. What Alex didn't know was whether he could keep his resolve around Michael. Coming here, into a place where he'd briefly known such joy, had hurt about as much as Alex had expected. And that had been the only part of it that had been as expected. The rest of the morning... Alex didn't know what to think yet. But he was pretty sure about the next step, and he'd learned the hard way that sometimes, the next step was the only one you could see. [end chapter five]
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Post by tasyfa on Feb 25, 2019 18:17:04 GMT -5
A silent thank you to my cousins for the endless blathering about the challenges of building a cottage. If any middle of nowhere details are wrong, blame them. ;+D ~Tas * * * * * By the time Michael parked his truck beside Alex's SUV, both vehicles tucked behind what looked like a glamping interpretation of rustic, he was thoroughly confused. The stop at the grocery store had made sense. The cabin really was as far out of town as Alex had said, and he probably didn't want to have to do the round trip again today. Taking separate cars made similar sense. The sports store, not so much. But Michael had waited there, too, before following Alex for a good half hour of rural scenery. "How did you end up here, dude?" Michael asked as soon as they were both stood on the ground. He looked around at the trees and shook his head, grinning. "I mean, you, Alex Manes, horror film aficionado, actually live in a cabin in the woods." Alex laughed. "Yeah, I know. I kind of love that part." It wasn't dense forest like in the mid-west or wherever it was they grew Christmas trees, but for the desert, it was a significant amount of greenery. "It suits you," Michael smiled, coming over to where Alex was getting his shopping out of the back. Everything had been organised into two large, sturdy tote bags, one with long shoulder straps and the other with short grab handles. He realised Alex would be able to carry both simultaneously on the non crutch side of his body, in addition to the backpack. Michael hesitated, but he would have asked anyone else if they wanted help, so he offered, "Want me to carry anything, or open the door for you?" Alex settled the straps on his shoulder and glanced at Michael. He'd sounded regular old polite, not pitying, and Alex appreciated it. He dug out his key and tossed it at Michael, smiling at the smooth catch. "Yeah, thanks. It's the door opposite from here, has the key fob design on it." "Got it." Michael went round to the front, taking a good look at everything on his way. It was well built, neat and tidy, and he guessed the little offshoot from the porch was the bedroom, with the larger section holding the living areas. The symbol on the door resembled a seashell to his eyes. Atypical for the middle of the country but whatever. It was a nice, solid door and he moved into the cabin to hold it open. Alex went in and right past him into the kitchen to unload. He had a system and he implemented it now, getting everything put away and folding the empty bags. His backpack, he left in the corner. No need to do anything with that yet. Michael wandered into the kitchen, still checking it all out. "Efficient," he observed. "If I hadn't already known you were military, I would now." "Fair," Alex admitted. "You want coffee, water, beer?" "Uh, water, thanks." He probably shouldn't have a beer, even if he wanted one. Alex pulled two bottles from the fridge and passed one to Michael. "Don’t drink from the tap, by the way. I'm on well water." "Also septic tank and generator, yeah? I can't imagine you get any town utilities out here." "Not a one," Alex confirmed. "The heating is all fireplaces so I do get loads of firewood delivered but otherwise, I'm totally on my own." Michael cracked open the bottle and took a long swallow. There was a contentment in Alex's voice, talking about the cabin, about being self-sufficient, that he hadn't heard before. He nodded with a soft smile. "Like I said, it suits you." "Thanks." The conversation felt intimate now, coloured by Michael's smile, and Alex cleared his throat. "So. I have some ideas on how we can go about this, but I'm going to need you to give me, like, an overview of what you can actually do." Michael joined Alex at the kitchen table. "Telekinesis, basically. I can move objects by exerting mental force on them." "Okay, good. And the normal laws of physics apply? It would take more effort to lift this table," Alex thumped the wood, "than it would to lift one chair?" "Yep. Mass, gravity, wind velocity, drag coefficients, so on and so forth. All applicable." "All right. I'm guessing from the dishes that you don't need line of sight, is that correct? You just need to know where something is to be able to act on it?" Alex was building a picture in his head of what might be possible. Normally he'd take notes, too, but that didn't seem like a good idea. Inanimate glass fragments were one thing. Live people were another. "That is correct." Michael held out the key fob to Alex, smirking. "For example, now that I've seen your front door in action, I could unlock it from here." "There's a comforting thought." At least it wouldn't result in a log through the window, like Kyle had nearly done yesterday. And under different circumstances, Alex had to admit that he would rather like the notion that Michael had his own key. "Could you do it from your place, or do you have a maximum range?" "I don't know." Michael tilted his head, thinking. "I can't remember trying it long distance. It usually is something in view, because there aren't a lot of repeats. My own door lock is the only thing I manipulate regularly." Oh, really? Alex could think of all kinds of things Michael manipulated regularly, albeit not physically. Or psychically, whatever. But he wasn't going to say that. "We can probably assume that you do have a maximum range but if most of your activity is on what you can see, or what's near you that you know well, then that's where we focus." "Sounds good," Michael nodded. "I guess the next question is, how do we focus on that?" It was strange to be having such a normal conversation about it. This time, Alex's steadiness reassured Michael. It was all so matter-of-fact that it was hard to feel nervous. "Almost. The next question is, how do you account for conservation of energy? There must be a cost associated with using the power, right?" "Right." Michael drew the slim plastic bottle from the back waistband of his jeans and placed it on the table. "That's where this comes in." Alex regarded the bottle with raised eyebrows. It couldn't be what it looked like, could it? He unscrewed the cap and sniffed the contents, wrinkling his nose at the strong scent. "Nail polish remover? Really?" Examining the label more closely, he observed, "It isn't acetone free. Not Maria's type, then." Michael chuckled. "The acetone is the important part, actually. It's sort of a tonic for us. Counteracts the effects of using our powers." He'd thought for a second that Alex might try to taste it, given his curiosity, and Michael's stomach was still settling from the unexpected lurch of fear. "Acetone, huh? Didn't see that coming." Alex sniffed the bottle again, coughing as he inhaled too deeply, and laughed at himself for it. Drinking a substance poisonous to humans seemed a lot more alien than telekinesis. Possibly that was just Alex, though. He'd been friends with Maria for so long that the proven existence of something that could be described as a psychic power didn't surprise him. He shrugged, smiling while he handed over the remover. "But then, what do I know about alien physiology?" He shouldn't. Michael knew he shouldn't. Here they were, managing a decent adult conversation about something important. But with Alex laughing, he couldn't resist, and a slow, sexy smile curved Michael's lips. "Oh, I don't know. I might have said you were intimately familiar with some alien physiology." The sudden heat emanating from Michael caught Alex off guard and wrapped him in warmth. The instant slide show in his head only added to the effect, stirring sense memories of Michael's skin under his hands, the taste of that smirk. They were strong enough that Alex had to ask, "Guerin, you aren't...?" Michael's smile widened. He knew exactly what Alex was asking, and he shook his head, keeping his eyes locked on Alex's. "I'm just looking at you, Private." "Uh-huh." Alex believed him, but almost wished Michael had been caressing him with his mind. He could brush aside his own reaction then. But it was all in his head. And his heart, he knew. "Alien's honour." Michael made the Boy Scouts sign with his hand. He could practically see a heat shimmer over the table between them and he both blessed and cursed that table. If Alex had been in easy reach, Michael would be kissing him now, and he knew how that would end: with him being kicked out of the cabin. "Funny." Alex felt flushed and he shifted in the chair, breaking the eye contact with some difficulty. Flirting like this would get them nowhere. He'd handled it badly at the drive-in, let his father get into his head, but Alex did have reservations about some of Michael's behaviour. He did hold himself to a high standard. He wanted a partner who did the same. And he just wasn't sure if Michael could be that person. Alex took a swig of water and twisted the bottle in his hands, not looking at Michael. "Um, so, what happens if you don't have acetone after?" And there was the bucket of cold water. Michael sighed. What the hell, the mood had already been ruined. "Projectile vomit." "That sounds like fun." Small wonder that Michael carried around a bottle. Isobel probably kept some in her handbag. Max, well, Max was probably screwed if he needed it on the job. A gun belt didn't really leave him many options. Alex would have a tough time concealing it in his uniform, too. "Yeah, barrel of laughs." "Just puke, or is it more like flu? You know, sweating, shakes, chills and hot flashes both?" Alex had escaped the experience for many years now, but he vividly remembered the one time he'd been deathly ill as a kid. "Never had the flu. Never been sick," Michael shrugged. Those symptoms seemed to track with what Isobel had been like after mindwarping Maria, but he intended to stick to only his personal experiences. "Oh, you suck, dude. I'm jealous!" Alex had to laugh. "It's a gift," Michael informed him smugly. "True, that." This felt like even footing again, and Alex was going to start outlining his plan when his stomach growled. He checked the time. "Shit, I need to eat. You want a sandwich?" "Sure." Michael watched as Alex put plates, knives, and a loaf of bread on the table, then grabbed what looked like a condiment caddy from the fridge, with jars of mustard and mayo and everything else they'd need. It was genius. "That's awesome." Alex smiled, putting two slices of bread on his plate and picking up his knife. "That, is DIY lunch, Guerin. Knock yourself out." [end chapter six]
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Post by tasyfa on Mar 1, 2019 9:47:03 GMT -5
Even if it hurts Even if it makes me bleed I'm gonna carry you Pushing through With the dirt on my sleeves
Even if it hurts Even if it's razor deep I'm not giving up Not gonna run I'll be there when you need me Even if it hurts~"Even If It Hurts", Sam Tinnesz * * * * * Michael now knew why they'd stopped at the sports store: tennis balls. A loose circle of tennis balls surrounded Michael in the grass, somewhere on Alex's property, far enough back that he could see neither cabin nor road. Just endless fucking green. With neon yellow dots. And Alex, seated nearby on a lawn chair. "Okay, I'm all set up. Now what?" Alex waved at the circle. "Move something. Juggle, whatever. Just leave me an opening so I can come over there once you've got going." He'd had Michael carry everything and had watched him place the tennis balls, conserving his energy for the steps after these. Not to mention, psyching himself up. "Here goes, then." The basic idea was pretty brilliant to Michael's way of thinking. Tennis balls were lightweight but had a sturdy shape, easy for him to manipulate, and they were unlikely to kill anyone if they were flung hard or exploded. Michael concentrated, levitating three balls in front of him and three behind, leaving both sides open as requested. The juggling action began slowly, first one set whirling in the classic shape, and then the other set in counterpoint. He wasn't a flashy guy but he did have an urge to do the magician arms, just for shits and giggles. He didn't, though. Michael was doing his best to be serious here. "Show-off." Alex couldn't deny that it was impressive. Or the little glow from knowing that Michael was showing off for him. Sad, Manes. You are sad."Hey, man, you said to juggle. I'm just doing what I'm told." "There's a first time for everything." Michael laughed. It faded into a nervous smile as Alex made his way over to stand in front of Michael. He knew what was coming next, sort of, and he didn't have the vaguest idea how it would affect him. "How're you feeling? Your control looks solid enough." The figure eights were well-defined and even to Alex's eyes. "Um, steady, I guess?" Describing his feelings wasn't exactly Michael's forté but he wasn't going to learn to control his powers when he was angry if he didn't know when he was angry. "Good." Alex paused to silently question his own sanity. Then he drove his fist into Michael's stomach. Michael doubled over with an expulsion of breath. He gulped in air and yelled, "What the fuck, Alex?!" "Shortcut for guys like us, Guerin," Alex kept his voice flat, not letting his relief show. Okay. He wasn't dead, so maybe it wasn't a completely insane plan after all. He looked down at Michael. "You dropped a ball." "Fuck you," Michael muttered, straightening up. He could feel his control skittering and he glared at Alex. He was back to having the other man's calm manner really piss him off. Michael coughed and focused on adding the dropped ball back into circulation, smoothing the movement of both sets. "Fuck you twice for being right." Alex couldn't hold back the laugh. "Well, you know, when you're good, you're good." "You're not good. You're an asshole," Michael grumbled. "Such a well developed vocabulary, Guerin. I thought you were supposed to be smart," Alex needled. Not the greatest comeback but the important thing was to keep the momentum going. Michael grunted in response. He glanced to the side and picked up a third set of tennis balls, starting them in another rotation. When it was established, he looked straight at Alex, smirking. Alex genuinely was impressed. But he kept that to himself, simply raising an eyebrow. If he'd had two hands free, he would have added a slow clap, but a dismissive expression would have to do. "Huh." "Huh?" Michael took exception to the tone, letting it get under his skin where he would usually brush it off. The whole point here, for both of them, was to get Michael angry. It already wasn't fun and he knew it wasn't going to get any better. "Yeah. Huh." Alex shrugged. "I guess I expected better of you." Dangerous territory, because Michael knew it was true. That Alex would say it, use it against him this way, started a slow burn in his chest. The comment had had nothing to do with juggling tennis balls with his brain. Alex noted the muscles jumping in Michael's jaw and knew that had hit home. He pushed. "What's the matter? Pussy got your tongue?" "Excuse you?" Those words did not just come out of Alex Manes's mouth. "Well, women and whiskey, that's what you do with your life nowadays, isn't it?" Alex phrased it as a question but his tone conveyed it as fact. And it was, sort of, but in the hours since he'd learned of Michael's origins, there'd been some shifts beginning in his thinking, as he started to get to grips with the enormity of what that meant for Michael. Michael struck back immediately. "Gotta get my kicks somewhere, right? Since you're off getting it in the ass from half the base." He saw the flash of hurt surprise in Alex's eyes, there and gone in a blink, not realising he'd been displaying the same thing this whole time. It wasn't true - was so far from the truth as to be laughable - but Alex could use it. He didn't think Michael had noticed how erratic the movement of the tennis balls had become, as he got more and more worked up. They were nearly to the target and Alex thought one more push might do it. He tilted his head, giving Michael a sly smile. "And so what if I were?" Pop! A ball exploded behind Alex, and then another. The remaining ones whizzed round at dizzying speed. Michael's chest heaved with furious breath. He tried to bring the tennis balls back down to the grass but he couldn't focus and they kept on spinning. Now Alex dropped his crutch, ignoring everything but Michael. He stepped close. "I'm here, Guerin. Look at me." He put a hand on Michael's chest, feeling the effort it was taking him, and continued to speak gently. "Breathe with me." Michael had expected it to be harder to switch gears, move away from the anger, but the soft warmth in Alex's voice, the earnest care in his gaze, made it possible for Michael to begin to calm down. It took longer this time, or at least he thought it did, because he also kept the remaining balls in the air, exactly as intended. Gradually they returned to the clean figure eights, right along with Michael returning to deep, even breaths. "You did it," Alex praised quietly. He couldn't help the wide grin. "Well done." Michael sighed. "I hate you." It was totally void of conviction. "No, you don't." "No I don't," he agreed. "But goddamn did I want to belt you." Alex laughed. "Well, that was the effect I was trying for, remember?" "Yeah, I remember." Michael was keenly aware of the hand still pressed to his chest. He wanted to take it and kiss the back of it, like an old-fashioned courting gesture, and then kiss the daylights out of Alex. He wanted... Fuck. Everything. He wanted everything. Reaction was starting to set in for Alex. He'd been calm, collected, carrying out his plan. Now, having accomplished the mission, he felt shaky. "Um," he didn't know quite what to say. He finally said, "I kind of need a hug. I know it's awkward, but... Would you mind?" It wasn't what Michael had expected to hear but it was a welcome request. He closed the small distance between them and wrapped his arms around Alex, holding him tight. "Thanks," Alex whispered, and shut his eyes, finding solace in Michael's embrace. [end chapter seven]
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Post by tasyfa on Mar 1, 2019 9:49:47 GMT -5
* * * * * Obviously the best course of action after the turbulent events of the day had been to crack open the beer and lounge around in Alex's living room after dinner. "I can't believe there's actually someone else in this county who doesn't own a TV," Michael laughed. "Do you get shit for it, like, constantly?" Alex wanted to know. "Because I am raked over the coals all the damn time." "Yes! Max isn't so bad, I can just tell him I've got books, but anyone else, you'd think I'd have grown an extra head." "I read a lot, but mostly on my phone these days. Way easier to carry around and use one-handed. And then I've got music, too," Alex nodded. "I get surprisingly good reception out here. But I'm not that far from the highway, just nowhere near town." "Yeah, you do," Michael agreed. He'd had no technical issues getting hold of Max and Isobel earlier. People issues, in that both of them were miserable and neither wanted to talk to him, but Michael couldn't blame that on the cell service. No, that was squarely on the continued fallout from Rosa's death. How exactly said fallout was falling, Michael didn't know. Because nobody would tell him. And he wasn't going to worry about it tonight. He was going to enjoy this time with Alex, bittersweet though it might be, knowing that everything would be different tomorrow. They'd go back to their respective corners and maybe even farther apart as the past decade unravelled around Max, Michael, and Isobel. When Alex would start to discover that Michael really was a criminal, and not just for the meaningless petty theft of some copper wire. For actual felonies. "So," Michael began, trying to keep it lighthearted. "Read anything good lately?" Alex noticed the shift in Michael's mood but chalked it up to aftereffects of their little experiment earlier. He was happy enough to talk literature and avoid the dozen or so elephants in the room. At length, though, Alex realised how tired he was. He sighed. "I gotta go to bed. Do you want an extra blanket or will that be enough?" He pointed at the throw over the back of the couch where Michael sat. "What? I don't need a blanket, I'm not ---" "Dude. You are not driving." Alex gave him a stern look. "Please don't tell me I have to actually take your keys." Michael sighed. "Fine. I will sleep on the couch." "Good." Alex got to his feet and stood still for a couple of minutes, waiting for his body to feel stable enough to walk. He should have called it a night a while ago. "Alex, man, you okay?" Michael's brow furrowed. Alex hadn't seemed that badly off, closer to tipsy than wasted. "Yeah, yeah. I just didn't account for, you know, learning aliens exist and trying stuff with your powers in the day's energy plans." "You lost me," Michael admitted. "Energy plans? Is that something DeLuca has you doing?" Alex chuckled. "No. I can see why you'd think that, but no. It's... I, uh, I kind of need to evaluate where I am, physically, every morning, and adjust my plans for that day based on how I feel, and what I need and want to get done." He shrugged, rubbing at his lip. "Today had some curve balls." "I think you mean tennis balls," Michael quipped, and they both laughed. "Touché." "Can I do anything?" Michael didn't want to make Alex feel self-conscious or pitied or whatever, but he also didn't want him to fall on his face. Plus that extra energy expenditure had been to help Michael so it only seemed fair. "Thanks. I should have brought the other crutch out so I could use them both. But I didn't, so." He'd have asked Michael to retrieve it but it felt weird, the idea of Michael in his bedroom without him. "Could you, walk me to my room?" Because that would be so much better. Good job, Manes."Yeah, sure." Michael went to stand by the door. He wasn't reading anything into the request; Alex was clearly exhausted. Instead of the alcohol hitting when he'd stood up, it had been the fatigue. "Thanks." He moved slowly, testing each step before he committed his full weight to it. That had become reflex but when Alex was this tired, he needed to actively think about how to walk. Michael watched him, silent. He could see the amount of effort Alex was having to put in to do something Michael did automatically, and any resistance to staying dissipated. It was his fault Alex was overtired and that made it his responsibility to ensure the other man was okay. By the time he'd crossed the short distance and gotten up the couple of stairs, Alex just stared at the door to the separate bedroom like he'd never seen it before. Key, he needed the key to open it. Where'd he put the fob after Michael had returned it? Clocking the pause, Michael squinted past Alex at the doorknob. Looked the same as the front door. He extended a tendril of power, finding the right place to exert pressure on the locking mechanism. The click was barely audible and then he swung the door open, ready for Alex to step through. " And you don't get sick? You suck," Alex complained. "Sorry," not sounding it at all. Alex made a skeptical noise. "Uh-huh." He let out a long sigh once he was safely sat on the bed, covers folded down so he could just slide in. As soon as he got his jeans and the prosthesis off. Michael hovered in the doorway. He wanted to help, but he also felt he needed to keep some distance - they both needed him to do that. He did notice how unconcerned Alex seemed about undressing with an audience and it made Michael smile. Stripped down to boxers and T-shirt and reclining against the pile of pillows, Alex pulled the bedding up and over himself, grateful for its warmth. The way Michael was looking at him made his stomach flutter. Still. He began, "Guerin," subsiding when Michael held up a hand. "I'm just 'Crutch Number Two' right now, man. I'll have my phone on if you need anything overnight," he nodded at Alex's cell phone, laid on the night table beside him. "Thank you," it was heartfelt. "There's food in the fridge and coffee in the cupboard, if you're up first and you want anything. Help yourself." "I will, thanks." Michael hesitated, but it wasn't the time to start a conversation or say anything important. "Sleep well." "Oh, Guerin, there is one more thing." Alex pulled a pillow out of the pile behind him and threw it at Michael. Who got it in the face as he turned back around. It bounced and Michael snorted a laugh, bending to pick it up. "Thanks?" Alex laughed. "Sorry. I've been meaning to replace the ones on the couch because I think they're the same ones as when I was a kid, but I never think of it except when I'm trying to sleep there." "In that case, yes, thanks," Michael grinned. "See ya in the morning." Alex watched him go, smiling when he heard the lock click. He'd been wrong earlier: even in the current circumstances, Alex liked that Michael had his own key to the cabin. It made him feel safe, something he didn't feel easily or often these days. He shoved the pillows around under the covers until he'd achieved something approaching a comfortable sleeping position, using them to support his unbalanced body. As soon as he relaxed, Alex was asleep. Michael wasn't so lucky. He built up then banked the fire, stretching out with the pillow Alex had thrown him and the blanket, lying there trying to not think too much, feel too much. Trying his damnedest not to want too much, when he knew it was going to be taken away. The fabric of the pillowcase smelled like Alex and it lent a sense of intimacy that sleeping on the couch didn't usually entail. Michael typically slept flat on his back but now he curled up on his side so he could breathe in Alex's scent, in lieu of the man himself. It was a long time before his heart let him sleep. [end chapter eight]
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Post by tasyfa on Mar 2, 2019 11:17:11 GMT -5
* * * * * The sound of the doorknob jiggling and the scrape of the key woke Michael. He rubbed the sleep from his eyes as he reached out with his mind and unlocked the door before the key got to it. Anticipating Alex's reaction, given how positive he'd been about it yesterday. "I could have sworn that was locked. Huh. I guess he's up!" Oh shit. Michael knew that voice. He'd heard it often enough. In fact, Isobel was the only woman he heard speaking more often than he heard Maria. He just hadn't expected to see anyone else here. Michael sat up, swinging his legs to plant his feet on the floor as Maria entered the cabin. "Morning, DeLuca." "Guerin?" The level of shock in her voice made him chuckle. "What are you doing here?" "I was sleeping," he drawled. "Obviously. Why were you sleeping on Alex's couch?" He gestured at the empty beer bottles littering the coffee table, smirking at her. "Driving home didn't seem like a good idea." "Who knew you were capable of being sensible?" Maria scoffed. She looked at his sock-clad feet. "Get your boots on, cowboy. You're going to make yourself useful." "Doing...?" He asked the question but he did move, assuming that whatever she wanted him to do was outside. And being useful sounded good. "The heavy lifting. My trunk is open, just bring it all into the kitchen." That surprised Michael but he could play burro, no problem. Boots on, he went into the morning sunshine, squinting against the brightness. It was early yet, nighttime chill still present in the air. It would warm up soon enough under that clear sky. Maria's SUV was parked in front, the rear open towards the cabin. No wonder she hadn't known he was here. His truck was round the back. But Michael hadn't been trying to bring anything beyond himself inside yesterday. He surveyed the contents of the vehicle. All beverages. Two cases of beer and five of bottled water. Michael couldn't help the laughter bubbling out. Looked like having a bartender for a best friend was serving Alex well. Michael was still grinning when he deposited the first two cases of water in the designated spot in the kitchen. "Something amusing you, Guerin?" "I didn't know bartenders made house calls." "They don't. Bar owners might, for special occasions." Her eyes sparkled with mirth, belying the prim tone. "Ah, I see. So Alex is a special occasion?" "Of course!" She checked behind Michael, presumably to ensure Alex hadn't shown up, and added, "It's something he'll let me do. The nearest Costco is, like, Albuquerque, and the grocery stores in town don't carry stuff by the case much. But, well water, you know, so I keep him stocked up at cost." "Yeah, no, it's a great idea. It's good." He wanted to thank her, but it really wasn't his place - Michael had no claims on Alex. He shuffled his feet and sighed. "I'll get the next load." "Guerin," she called after him before he left the cabin. "You want coffee?" "Yes, please," he called back as he exited. Michael eyed the three remaining cases of water. He could carry it all, but he probably shouldn't. A couple extra trips was the smarter option. So he made them, back and forth between vehicle and kitchen, until Maria's trunk was empty and Michael closed the lid on it. "Cream, sugar?" Maria enquired when Michael sat at the table. He shook his head. "Nope, black, please." She poured the fresh brew into a mug and passed it to him, taking a second for herself. Then she sat across from Michael and looked him up and down. "What?" he demanded. "You are so much nicer in the morning." He laughed and winked at her. "I gave you plenty of opportunity to discover that before now, DeLuca." Maria rolled her eyes. "You are also incorrigible." "I know. It's part of my charm." "Is that what you call it?" she snorted a laugh. "Yep." Bantering with Maria DeLuca felt familiar and comfortable, despite their current location, and Michael relaxed, sipping at the coffee in between trading barbs. * * * * * Alex had heard the SUV drive up, the sound of the engine penetrating the fog in his brain. He'd slept like the dead. Everything ached, but the same way it always did when he woke up, nothing unusual. Thank God. He'd forgotten Maria was coming over but he wasn't concerned. She already knew Michael and Alex figured he could trust them to not kill each other for the amount of time it would take him to shower. The warm water splashing over his bare skin felt good and Alex closed his eyes, enjoying it. The shower room had been his one major change to the cabin when he'd moved in; the little cubicle it had previously had wouldn't have allowed him independence. But with the renovation to adapt the space, he was perfectly capable of taking care of himself. Considering what the day might bring formed his usual shower thoughts, doing his physical checks while he washed, using the grab bars to lift onto his one foot to rinse off thoroughly before returning to the stool. Today, though, Alex couldn't stop thinking about Michael in his bedroom last night, laughing. He'd conjured the mental image many times before, at first in a kind of visualisation exercise after they'd reconnected that afternoon at Foster Homestead Ranch. Hoping to gather the courage to invite Michael home. Since the drive-in, the image had been wistful, an homage to lost chances and what ifs. But now Alex had a real memory. And yeah, Michael had been across the room at the time, but it had felt good to have him there, in Alex's private space. Another memory floated to the surface. Not of Michael; this one was from hanging out with friends, in a different desert on another continent. A long discussion that got more and more ridiculous over the night, kicked off by Stevie's proclamation that any serious conversation with someone you wanted to fuck should be prefaced by getting your own rocks off. That way, you could focus on their words instead of picturing them naked. His friends did have a way with words sometimes. The stool was close enough to the wall to let Alex lean back, warm skin meeting ceramic tile. The abrupt chill caused a full body shiver but it faded fast as he wrapped his fingers around his cock, beginning to stroke. He let his mind wander wherever it wanted to go. Whatever made his breath catch and his balls tingle. A lot of what surfaced weren't things he'd actually want to do in real life, but something about it turned him on, and he'd stopped trying to analyse or control his sex thoughts. They were private. And vivid this morning. Alex could practically hear Michael, the sense memory of his noises strong in Alex's brain. Remembering the feel of work-roughened hands on him, in him, all over him. He groaned, tensing as his body pulsed in release. Alex coaxed as much pleasure from himself as he could, lifting his hand away when he started to get over sensitive. Masturbation, meditation, and whatever else it was going to take for Alex to stay on an even emotional keel today. Bring it on.[end chapter nine]
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Post by tasyfa on Mar 3, 2019 13:43:17 GMT -5
Breakfast of Champions * * * * * Alex came into the kitchen to find Maria at the stove cooking a big batch of scrambled eggs, and Michael laughing as he set the table with three places. His eyebrows went right up. "I guess I didn't need to worry about you two getting along. Or making yourselves at home," Alex tilted his head at Maria. This was not standard behaviour for her. "Alex!" She put the spatula down long enough to grab him. Alex hugged her back, grinning. "Please tell me there's coffee." "Oh, she did that first, man. While I was still lugging in your personal bar supplies," Michael teased. He couldn't help looking Alex over, noticing the damp spiky hair and the hint of colour in his face. "Oh, so I have to thank you for that?" Alex shot back, pouring himself a mug and carrying it to the table. He chose the seat opposite Michael, beside the empty spot for Maria. Safer by far. "You do," Maria confirmed. "He even collected the empties and loaded them into my car." "Well. Thank you," Alex smiled at Michael. It was more than a little surreal, having him here, especially with Maria too. He looked good. Of course, he looked exactly the same as last night, seeing as he'd slept in his clothes, but Alex's opinion hadn't changed, either. "Here you go, boys." Maria divided the pan's contents among the plates and plopped down into her chair. "And thank you, too," Alex bumped her shoulder with his then picked up his fork. "I can't remember the last time someone made me breakfast." He caught the way Michael's smile dimmed and mentally kicked himself, grateful his own mouth was full now so he couldn't say anything else. "You need to get out more," Maria told him, and Alex just nodded. Michael felt a little like he'd been slapped, and at the same time, he was relieved. If Alex wasn't spending the night with him, at least Michael knew he wasn't spending it with anyone else, either. "Yeah, thanks from me, too," he told Maria, avoiding looking at Alex. It was easy to do as he applied himself to the food. Alex followed suit, relieved when Maria fell silent as well. It wasn't quite companionable, but hunger made for a decent reason not to talk, and by the time he scraped the plate clean, Alex was on even footing again. Predictably, Maria spoke first. "I hate to eat and run but I gotta get back. Guerin, I can give you a lift to the junkyard, if you're done with the generator repair?" Michael smiled at her. "Thanks, but I've got my truck. I mean, that's where the tools live, you know?" He carefully didn't look at Alex, who would know the generator repair story was an outright lie. "Oh, yeah, I always forget there's enough room back there for two vehicles," she talked as she filled the sink with soapy water and put the used dishes in there, collecting Alex's fork directly from his fingers before he had a chance to put it down. "Hey!" Alex had to laugh. "How can you be sure I'm done with that?" "Eggs are gone," she shrugged. Then wiped her hands dry and picked up her handbag. "A'right, it's y'all's turn to do some work. Alex, text me when your next weekend is so we can make plans." "Will do," he nodded. He would ask Michael about this phantom repair once they were alone. "Guerin, I'm sure I'll see you soon, especially since you have a two drink credit." "I have a what now?" Last Michael had heard, he owed her $84. How'd he end up in the black? "A two drink credit. I was going to keep the extra as a tip, but I'm feeling goodwill towards you today." Michael must have looked as confused as he felt because she laughed. "Isobel. Remember? She paid your tab when she paid for the reading." "Oh, uh, she didn't say anything. Probably forgot. Like you said, she'd had enough when I took her home." He'd completely missed her paying Maria. Maria nodded, more serious now. "I hope she's okay. I heard she had a fight with her husband." She hesitated, then added, "You should know that people think it's because of you." Michael sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose. "Fucking small towns, man. Of course they think she's slumming it." "Just to be clear, you're not sleeping with her, right?" "What?" Michael scowled in pure disgust. "She's my goddamned sister! Gross." "She's your sister?" Maria gasped. "Yes!" He hadn't said it aloud for years. Hadn't been able to feel that connection to Isobel, not the same way as he had when they were kids. Or to Max. Especially not to Max. Too much guilt and fury in the way. Too many secrets. "I had no idea," Maria breathed. "Most people don't. The Evanses wanted an adopted daughter, and she clung to Max, so they stretched to a two-fer. But they weren't interested in taking three." He shrugged, pretending it didn't matter. Wishing that were true. "Shit happens." "Oh, Michael," her tone was sympathetic. "I'm sorry. Do you... Like, do you want people to know?" He sighed, shaking his head. "Noah knows about it, so he'll know what people are saying about me and Izzy is total bullshit. And if you quash this rumour, he might get hurt by its replacement. So just leave it alone." Michael offered a supremely cynical smile. "It's not like it will damage my reputation any." "True," Maria agreed, but still in that gentle tone. She patted his shoulder. "I'll see you at the Pony." With that, she left, and Michael put his head in his hands, elbows resting on the table. He didn't want to look at Alex. He'd never told him about the Evanses. Although, they hadn't actually named many of the horrors each had suffered growing up. They had recognised each other's pain at a level beyond words. He heard Alex stand, and then soft clinking and splashing. He realised Alex was doing the dishes. Michael felt he should be doing that, but he didn't move, keeping his head down like a coward. Alex washed plates, cutlery, mugs, frying pan, all on automatic while his thoughts whirled. When everything was stacked neatly in the drying rack, he pulled out two more mugs and split the remaining coffee between them, then started a fresh pot. He had a feeling they might be here a while. Michael took the mug placed in front of him, cupping its heat in his palms. He nodded in Alex's general direction but he didn't raise his eyes and he didn't speak. "Guerin, do you," no, too confrontational. Alex didn't want Michael to feel under attack. He wanted answers, but not by adding to the defeated slump of Michael's shoulders. He tried again, "Are you ever able to tell the plain truth? Without risking exposure?" The question surprised Michael. He considered it for several minutes, really thinking about it. It felt like the answer mattered. Finally he admitted, "I don't know. I think it flavours everything, even when it has nothing to do with it on the surface, you know? Like, it's a permanent filter over my brain." "Not unlike being gay," Alex said softly. It made sense to him. Then again, Michael had always made sense to him, on a deep, almost spiritual level. It was why they'd connected in the first place. "Yeah, I guess it would be." Michael flicked a glance at Alex. "I haven't had to live with that filter." He passed for straight easily. People would have to actually pay attention to notice him noticing all genders, and no one did. "And I'm no alien. But I think the similarities are there, and I can better understand where you're coming from." "Can you?" Michael's gaze snapped up, anger swelling. "Can you really? You can understand how I became a felon at age 13, covering up a murder because Max had just come into his powers and Isobel was in danger? You can understand how Isobel was so damaged by what happened then that a switch flipped in her towards the end of senior year and when she committed murder, I covered that up, too? Told her it was me when she couldn't remember anything? Gave up every dream I'd ever had to take care of her and make sure it never happened again?" The air around him crackled with energy, the curtains trembling in an artificial breeze. "Can you understand all that, Alex?" Pain saturated Michael's voice as he finished quietly, "And if you can, could you fucking explain it to me?" Stunned, Alex just stared at him. Neither the outburst nor its contents were expected, and he didn't know how he felt, never mind what he thought of these revelations. But the flutter of the curtains caught his eye, and Alex had long practice in shoving everything personal aside to get on with the mission. He grabbed Michael's chin, forcing him to face him. "Guerin. Breathe." The sudden touch clarified the command and Michael became aware of the power leak. His brow furrowed. "Shit." He concentrated on expanding his diaphragm, pulling deep breaths that barely moved his chest as the air was drawn down into his body. The imaginary scent of ozone faded away into the reality of kitchen smells. "Good." Alex let go of him once the room had calmed. Michael sighed. "Maybe you could explain you while you're at it." "In what sense?" "In, like," Michael waved a hand, as if that would magically convey his meaning to Alex. "You not losing your cool, like at all. You don't even flinch when I'm levitating stuff around you." Alex looked sideways and closed his eyes briefly. Better than rolling them at that comment. "Did you miss the part where I spent the bulk of the last ten years in one war zone or another? You think a few dishes or tennis balls are in the same league, really?" He shook his head. "Guerin, you don't scare me." Michael huffed a laugh. "Yeah, I guess I'm small potatoes in comparison." "Little bit," Alex agreed, raising his eyebrows. "I also spent considerable time in a convalescent hospital for wounded warriors, where me and every other patient had to learn to deal with our anger. I've had a lot of therapy, physio and psych both." He rubbed his bottom lip and sucked it into his mouth. "I have tools, Guerin. Techniques to cope with life. And I had help acquiring them. You haven't." "A toolbox for the mind, huh?" It appealed to Michael, framing his problems that way. "Does Stanley make one?" Now Alex rolled his eyes. "It's kind of a DIY job." "You do like your DIY." "I do, yeah." Alex prized his independence, had done so long before he'd lost a limb. "So you aren't scared of me." Michael could accept that, with the context he'd been given. He stared into the coffee mug, unable to look at Alex as he asked, "Do you hate me?" Alex had been so decisively negative about him selling copper wire. His 'side hustle'. What must he be thinking of Michael now? Alex's throat closed at the lost note in Michael's voice. He couldn't offer complete or immediate assurance on how he felt overall; Alex was still figuring that out himself. But he knew how he didn't feel. "No. I don't hate you. And I'm still going to help." "Why?" Michael whispered, swallowing hard against the pressure of tears. "Because you need it, all three of you, and because I made a promise to a dead man." If this went horribly sideways, Jim Valenti would have a lot to answer for. Michael nodded, remembering what a young, rebellious Alex had told him once about not everyone having an agenda, that people could be nice just because. That boy had had a generosity of spirit that didn't seem to have been diminished any by the years or the life events he'd experienced. It was one of the things Michael loved most about him. He cleared his throat, finally looking at Alex. "Okay, then. What do you need from me?" Alex breathed a silent sigh of relief. "I need to know everything. Whatever you know. Start at the beginning, and don't leave anything out." [end chapter ten]
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Post by tasyfa on Mar 4, 2019 17:23:37 GMT -5
Adjustable Plans * * * * * Late afternoon sun shone golden, tinting the air in the living room. It seemed to follow Michael, Alex thought, amused at the whimsical notion. His gaze traced the path of light along the curves of Michael's hair, each distinct curl gleaming. His fingers itched to follow the same path but he stayed in his chair, connected to Michael only by virtue of watching him, stretched long on the couch, facing away. They'd agreed hours ago that it would be easier if they weren't looking at each other. Neither man was naturally given to this much talking and it had been a slog, especially in full daylight. And minus any booze. Alex was still processing the information dump. Twenty years of Michael's life, to the twenty-seven of his own. The differences between them could be encapsulated by those seven years. Yesterday, Alex's world had turned inside out. Today, upside down. What the hell was tomorrow going to bring? "The only disadvantage to living out here is, no pizza delivery," Alex broke the silence. Michael twisted to look at him. "Seriously, dude? That's your takeaway?" Alex shrugged. "I'm hungry." "You're..." Michael started to laugh. He slid flat on the couch again and dissolved into giggles. Why it was so funny, Michael had no idea. But the laughter washed through him until he was gasping for air, sides aching, tears running from the outer corners of his eyes. Eyebrows raised, Alex had to grin, seeing Michael shake. He couldn't hear any hysteria, just pure mirth. "Ohhh," Michael groaned, sitting up as the giggles died away at last. "My stomach hurts now." "And everywhere else?" Alex asked with a gentle smile. Michael propped his forearms on his thighs and looked at the floor. "I think, 'lighter' might be the best way to put it. Some of that, I mean, I've never said it out loud before." He raised his head. "There wasn't anyone it was safe to tell." "Yeah. I get that." And Alex did. He'd chosen to flaunt his sexuality in high school when he couldn't hide it, but if he'd been able to pass for straight, he knew he probably would have kept it to himself, particularly with the situation at home. "What about you?" "It's kind of like standing in the middle of a renovation. You know where you started, and you think you know where you're going to finish, but getting there requires redrawing some plans. And re-evaluating your priorities as to what really matters, because it isn't always what you thought it would be," Alex spoke slowly, feeling his way through the metaphor. "So I'm in the messy part, trying to figure out the priorities." He tilted his head. "Does that make sense?" "It does." Fixing a car often had a similar trajectory. Michael's lips twitched. "But I can't believe you brought it back to DIY." Alex rolled his eyes. "I didn't DIY the bathroom. I hired professional tradespeople." "But the principle is the same, making adjustments to the plan as you go." "Well, yeah," Alex conceded. "As long as we both understood what I meant in this context, though, that's what's important. And I think we do." "Yeah." Michael felt antsy and drained at the same time, and more clear-headed than he'd been in years. "You got anything suitable for grilling? I can't cook worth a damn but I'm alright with a barbecue, and I saw you have one out back?" "Um, whatever's in the fridge drawers should work. I refilled the tank last week so it should have plenty of fuel." "Cool." It was all Michael said before heading to the kitchen, leaving Alex to sit alone in the sunglow, pensive now. It wasn't okay, what Michael and his siblings had done. Alex knew the Ortechos had suffered so much more than the loss of Rosa. And the privileges afforded the aliens as Caucasians in New Mexico had made it easy to maintain the cover-up, because no one had bothered to look beyond the obvious scenario that had been presented to them. Those same privileges had also meant that they hadn't anticipated how bad the town's reaction would actually be. It simply wouldn't have occurred to them. And, those privileges blinded everyone else to what lay underneath. Caucasian, yes, but not human. Statistics varied but the estimated amount of non-heterosexuals was something like ten percent of the global population, the last time Alex had checked. It was easy to feel alone, given the distribution of that population, but the actual number of people in that ten percent was, objectively, a lot. Not so with Michael, Max, and Isobel. The three of them were it, on a planet of over seven billion people. And what that meant was that every move they made in their lives had to be designed to maximise their chances of survival. Every move. No matter what. What they'd done had been horrific. The continuation of it, keeping it covered up for ten years, was almost worse. None of it was right, none of it was okay, and there would need to be some reckoning. But Alex found he could understand it. He'd lived through enough himself, learned enough from Michael in the past two days, to see the decision tree options for the situation the aliens had found themselves in, and every possible outcome had sucked. Knowing that, feeling the truth of it in his bones, meant Alex could move forward now. He could live with himself if he helped. Perhaps more importantly, he wouldn't be able to live with himself if he didn't. * * * * * Standing over the barbecue, Michael tended the food, flipping the chicken breasts and sweet peppers without any utensils. He'd needed to put some space between him and Alex. Michael felt like he'd taken 400 grit fine sandpaper to his emotions; everything felt huge, intense and raw. He'd shone some bright lights on some pretty fucking dark places. Right now, the best thing Michael could do was let Alex be, to mull over all the garbage that had come out of Michael's mouth, and do his bit to feed him. The air was cool in the shade. Fresh. Michael focused on the feel of the breeze against his face, blowing his hair around. He could tell he'd only recently cut it because it wasn't sticking him in the eyeballs. The smells were making him hungry. He hadn't been; he'd wanted to get some breathing room, and take care of Alex. It was probably the last opportunity Michael would have. Alex had said he wanted to help, but after Michael's full disclosure, he was expecting Alex to change his mind. He floated the cooked food onto the waiting plates and turned off the grill. Time to face the music. [end chapter eleven]
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Post by tasyfa on Mar 5, 2019 18:25:35 GMT -5
Club Membership * * * * * "So." "Yeah." "Thanks for this. It's good. What's the sauce?" Alex ventured, dipping a piece of chicken in the small bowl. Interrupting the earlier flow of words had left them in this awkward space and he didn't know how to climb out of it yet. "Tabasco and honey. I dialled down the heat ratio for yours," Michael offered a crooked smile. He wanted to ask if Alex had reached any conclusions, identified any of those priorities he'd mentioned, but he couldn't do it. Michael had already laid out so much today, felt open and raw still. He simply wasn't capable of posing the questions that he knew would lead to Alex shutting him out and turning away from him. It was the dance they did. Alex would make some overture, Michael would go all in, and Alex would push him away as soon as he'd gotten whatever he wanted this time. And Michael would collect the shattered pieces and try to glue them back together. He didn't know if he could do it again. Not after those few days of bliss had ended so abruptly at the drive-in. It felt different this time. "I appreciate that," Alex smiled. "I'd prefer not to melt my face off." He could tell some of Michael's emotions from his body language, how he'd drawn in on himself physically despite the teasing tone, the outward casualness. Alex took a deep breath, hoping he wasn't about to make the biggest mistake of his life. "I think the next step is to talk to Max. We need to be certain of exactly what Liz knows. Then I probably need to talk to Liz." And wouldn't that be fun? But Alex knew how to talk to Liz - how to engage the scientific part of her brain and guide her to think logically. She was such a passionate person that sometimes she could use a little help in divorcing her emotions from a situation, and it would never be more necessary than on the subject of her sister's death. "Max?" The things coming out of Alex's mouth bore no resemblance to the pre-emptive dialogue in Michael's head. "Yeah, you know, your brother?" Why did Michael look so confused? "Uh, yeah, no, I got that. Yeah, good idea. Talking to Max. We should probably go over there. Not really a phone friendly topic." "Guerin, you okay?" "What? Fine, yeah. Just wasn't what I thought you were gonna say, is all. No big." Which Michael realised was an outright lie as soon as he said it, because it was actually a very big deal indeed. "I'll call him when we're done here. If he's not home, he'll be with Izzy, since he's off work right now. On account of getting fucking shot." His eyeballs seemed to roll of their own accord. But, he and Max did that to each other constantly anyway. "I said I was going to help, didn't I?" "You did. But," Michael sighed. He had to be honest. "I've learned not to get too attached to what you say you're going to do." That stung, but Alex couldn't deny its accuracy. "Yeah. I'm, uh, I'm working on that. This is bigger than you and me, though. Like, life and death bigger." "I guess it is, yeah," Michael nodded. "So we finish up here and head to Max's." It wasn't a question, but it wasn't quite a statement, either. "We do," Alex confirmed. His hat would be well and truly thrown into the ring then. * * * * * Michael didn't bother knocking, just exerted the barest pressure on the familiar door lock and walked into Max's house. "That you, Michael?" came from the general direction of the hallway. "Obviously. Where you at?" "Coming." The word barely preceded the man. Michael looked Max over as he approached, noting the sling cradling his left arm against his body and the pain lines on his face. "You drinking enough? Because you look like shit," Michael told him bluntly. "Hello to you, too," Max snorted. He started to say something else and Michael saw his gaze sharpen as he spotted Alex. "Um, hi, Alex. Sorry, I didn't know Michael was bringing company." "And I didn't know he didn't tell you." Alex raised his eyebrows. "Any particular reason you kept that quiet, Michael?" Max enquired. There it was, the tiny disappointed pause before his name that Michael had always thought sounded like Max wanted to call him something rude but was too polite to actually say it. He grinned. "Let me do the introductions. Deputy Sheriff Max Evans, one third of the only set of otherworldly triplets on this planet, meet Captain Alex Manes, the newest member of our Save the Aliens Club." The shock and anger dawning in Max's expression were deeply satisfying. "What did you do, Michael?" he gritted out. Alex could see this going south fast without intervention. "He told me. Everything." "Define everything," Max demanded. Alex tilted his head. He understood Max was angry but he didn't appreciate the tone. Nodding at the flickering lamp, he asked evenly, "Got more light bulbs if you spark that one out?" He watched Max's jaw work and the flickering steadied. "I do," Max confirmed, sounding calmer. "Michael, I need to speak with you in the other room." Michael shook his head. "No, you don't. Everything means everything, Max. What we are. What we know. The birthday camping trip. Rosa. Liz." He stepped close to Max, earnest gaze boring into his brother's. "No more secrets. Anything you have to say to me, you can say in front of Alex." "You finally decide to trust someone and it's Jesse Manes's son? What the hell, Michael?" "Oh, like you decided to resurrect Rosa Ortecho's sister and tell her the edited version without any input from me or Isobel?" Michael's temper flared. "Fuck you, Max. I'm done living by your rules." Alex couldn't see anything floating but he was starting to recognise the way the air felt when Michael's telekinesis was gearing up. He touched Michael's elbow, speaking low. "Breathe." Michael threw him a sideways glare but he did drag air into his lungs and it helped, letting him tamp it down. He addressed Max, "Look. The last person Alex would say anything to is his father. You need to trust me on that one." Michael could practically see Max thinking, possibly connecting the few dots that he had about Michael's past relationship with Alex. He didn't care. For Alex's sake, he hoped Max wouldn't actually ask about the personal aspects of it. As Alex had said earlier, back at the cabin, this was much bigger than one undefined fucked up whatever it was. "Okay," Max finally capitulated, giving a lopsided shrug. "Okay. Let's all sit down and see what we can come up with." [end chapter twelve]
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